I think the best compliment I've ever received was, "it's always half-full with you, isn't it?" and that's something I've tried to carry with me, especially these past several months, when the search for gainful employment has reached critical, kafkaesque levels of demoralization. I like that someone pretty exceptional, whose opinion I value, thinks of me as an optimist. I always feel triumphant when I can report that indeed, I have continued to look on the bright side.
Another thing I really love hearing is when people say they can't picture me as a blonde, even though that's the color my hair was from the time I was born to 2006. Even people who knew me before I started coloring my hair say they can hardly imagine blonde being my natural shade.
I can't help but wonder, then, how much of my angst comes from the fact that because I can't seem to find a paying job, I can't justify spending money on hair dye, and the blonde is really showing - about 2 inches at the roots, and is a really stark contrast even against the faded purple of the rest. I've taken to wearing scarves a la Grace Kelly, but every night, when I brush it out, there it is, mocking me, reminding me that no matter how I try to cover it up or change it, I am forced to be as I was, not as I have chosen to be.
High school senior pic vs. a few months ago. Note: I have not turned green IRL.
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I'm having a similar but opposite problem.. I have (and have had) a few boxes of blonde dye in my bathroom and I want to dye it, but I can't justify re-dying it when my roots start to grow out (which will only take about a month).
With blonde dye at least, they make those root touch-up kits so you don't have to redo all of it. Not so much with the purple dye.
Lol- I was a natural blonde my whole life- until I underwent chemo for liver cancer and my hair fell out- three times. When it grew back- it was RED! I blame my Mom for recessive Irish genes. So people who used to know me as a blonde think I am now a dyed redhead- and i have to explain that I am an un-natural redhead now. Just remember- your hair color doesn't make you who you are- your heart and spirit do. And those can't be changed with a box of dye. Love yourself as you are- even if your roots don't match! (((((HUGS)))) @BattyJanice
Funny... I was more having trouble imagining you as an orc...
At least no one has landed a house on you yet. :)
It's all good, though, right? It has to be. Otherwise I might go a little bonkers myself.
More than my normal baseline level, at any rate.
@BattyJanice: That is odd. I used to know a guy who had really yellow-blonde hair on his head, but his beard grew in really red. Thanks for the encouragement :)
@The Loss Adjuster: Orc, dark elf, goblin, Orion Slave Girl... all things I heard since I first turned my Twitter pic green!
@Elwood: I think the key word there is "yet."
I have always admired your optimism, especially the time I complained about how I couldn't bike in the rain and you reminded me that I like running in the rain! So not only is your glass half-full, but you're making sure those around you benefit from it ...
Where does one buy purple hair dye, anyway?
@Melissa You have always been a source of positive energy!
And I get my dye at Target - Garnier Black Cherry.
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